You leave me SPEECHLESS.,

hmmmmmm...it seem i have blogged for alot alot days le......pspspsps...

just few more days to you 1 month anni..

i still missess you damn lots..

haha i forgot what i wanted to say le..aiyo i so forgetful..

but the happiness that you brought to me i will never forget..

forgive me for not visiting you as much now..

i still wanna belive that you are alive..

forgive me for the nights that i;ve been crying myself to sleep..

i will buck up..

and i always remember that you are always by my side..

school have been tiring..

we have practicals almost everyday..

my legs hurt alot cause im wearing my shoe everyday..

have to uy new one though...

ohh...today we went cwp and had pizzahut for dinner to celebrate agnes belated bdae...

it was fun and i was totally full after eating..

and then we had an idea to get(force) agnes to go for a haircut.

haha..

i didn get to see her cut finish her hair..

as usual i always have curfews..

haiz...

have to buck up!!

gonna be 18 in 7 more months..

maybe i get more freedom then..

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:28 AM

Dear Ham Ham,

i eat maggie mee until i totally wanna vomit liao..its like i every everyday eat it.....jut a few more days jiu can eat normal food liao..hurray!!oh and the thought that i have to wake up early is killing me..zzz i like sleeping like a pig everyday..hahaha. just 2 more days jiu sch reopen le:) i thinking why my cms only got food chem, food micro and unit operation thingy there? but the timetable got so many other module leh? ehhhh i still dun get it...got HBlm, FMklnv, FdIng not inside the cms...maybe those is require buy books de ah? have to wait till monday jiu will know ba..

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

8:06 PM

Dear Ham Ham,

i was so scared of being alone that i didnt realised that i was alone all this while..

Ha-Ha now the word FML really suit me now..

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:42 PM

Dear Ham Ham,

My life totally suck...it seem that i was taken for granted...just a few minutes ago i was still able to move on in my life thinking that this was all for something...and i was looking forward to next week...but i finally realised that it wasnt so...maybe its just cause they hate me dun like me..or worse still didn even treat me as friend..

my life suck..

i suck..

get treated like a maid at home suck..

i dun even get a little respect at all..

can it get any worse..?

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:39 PM

Dear Ham Ham,

I'm scare of being alone in the world.

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

6:57 PM

Dear Ham Ham,
ytd i watch how to train your dragon. It was awesome!!!! TOTALLY very nice to watch.. The main character name is Hiccup..funny right..lol..tml is your 1 week anni..i still misses you alot alot..but i know someday we will meet again..when i die.hahah:) so before then i wont forget you!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:01 PM

Dear Ham Ham,
        hammmmiiiiiii!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!! I made such a stupid mistake today!!><>
        ....I still misses you alot..thinking of you make me wanna cry..but i cant cry i cant>
        anw i tell you hor when i was working got this indian guy came and ask 'which eyedrop is the best' and i was like 'what?'.....so i bring him go the eyedrop section lo..and then he keep talking one eyedrop and ask me 'what does this do?', 'how it help?'..ahhhh he very irritating lo..and the most er xin part tat he keep standing closer and closer to me..ewwww....so obvious lo..so i have to keep moving backward...zz
       And when he paying for the eyedrop, he jiu lean on the cashier and use his finger to swing out the dollar notes...zzzz...he think he in bollywood iszit???
       Hammmiii today i just realised something sia....i think i got guyaphobia or maleaphobia no matter what it call..i get scared when guy get near to me..or when i walk past them also scared.. When i queuing up to buy bubble tea, when gt a guy queue behind me i got really scared sia...make me cannot think properly..hai dao wo buy wrong drink..i dunno how i buy honey milk tea when i really wanted peach milk tea..haiayaya...
       okay i going sleep le..hop i dream of you tonight!!!Night Hammii!!!
                                                                                                                                      Love MN

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:18 AM

Dear Ham Ham,
         Its been awhile since you passed away..hope you doing fine wherever you are. I'm stil missing you a whole lot. i wannna hug and play with you like before but i know its not possible..
         Hey hammi, you know what our next door neighbour lend me some korean drama vcds:) cuz she say they have alot of those and they rarely watch them anymore. I think maybe i watch them tonight?
         I hate it that it have been raining these few days..i'm so scared that your grave will be wash away but dun worry i used a cardboard over it to protect it..i just hope it wont fly away-.-...I'm totally mad at my dad for buring you behind our house..i really wanted to bury you in front our house. But thinking that people might be walking over you all the time make me sad too..I will visit you everyday so you wont be lonely:)
        Ohya..i'm saving money now, part of it is to return to janice they all and part of it is to buy stuff for you. I wanna buy flower and plants so i can plant next to your grave. So you will be happy when you see flower everyday.:)) so i will try to save alot alot of money..
        I'm gonna put a picture of you here everyday so i can see them. I just wanna tell you that i really miss you and i won't forget you ever..So please don't forget about me okay!!?:'( :')
        I miss you ham ham!!!!!

Remember this picture!!:)) i put a tou gei at your mouth whle you were sleeping..haha

You were so cute then.you are also so cute now..

okay ttytml..missyou.loveyou.=)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:53 AM