forgt my lapcoat,
almost late for prac,
had some problems durin prac, but it was alright.
stats class couldn understand,
lecture even worse,
seems like im gonna fail tat module.
had lunch at south canteen,
went orchem prac,
it was fun=]
but til the end my mood went frm gd to bad..
我讨厌现在的自已。
i hate this feeling of mine..
i dont want to be thrown back into the despair i once experience.
i couldnt take it then,
i wouldnt be able to take it now.
love is something tat never leave my side and i know it wont.
it haunt me till i break down.
love is so hard.
i cant understand it.
i tried to embrace it,
but im scared i'll be hurt once again.
my fren tried to help me,
but i just cant go out of my comfort zone.
never able to stand out in the world full of love.
i really really care about my fren, cuz if they leave me i would have nothing left.
but sometimes i really cannot stand it,
seeing how people who found their rightful partner.
and im all alone,
cuz i know my fren will eventually find their partner too.
i'll be alone once more.
my fren said love is not to be scared off,
as everything about love is wonderful.
but the only thing that im thinking anout is " what if he say he dun like me?"
den our realationship as frens will be over.
i always think too complicated stuff,
i know i do.
if someone treat me good in a way, i might misunderstand it.
i want to avoid having that misunderstanding but yet at the same time i hope it was true.
having someone who looks after you, care about you isn't that bad.
yet i cant find tat person.
why?why?why?
i wanna say i hate love!
but a part of me wishes for it!
i have alot i want to say,
but in the end...i have nth to ay.
I'M A COWARD WHO DOESN'T DARE TO EMBRACE LOVE.
but i act as if i know the word LOVE.
i only live life as days and days passes on...
oh my...it seems like i said quite alot.
so it bye bye for now.
hope that one day i'll be able to throw the coward myself away:)
its the 1st time i wrote down my feelings,
so if anyone of u ask me about this i'll be too embarrassed><
"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."
6:32 AM
6:32 AM
This is me(LMN) here speaking to you lot(not live) from an Asian country(lol). Im still quite young if i might say so. And no im not from antarctica, maybe alaska. or maybe africa(NOT..as i just say i from a country where summer is all year round^^) oh, btw im a female (since it's a girly skin, you all of cuz know its a girl)my friends obviously know who i am..haha. Oh and i'll try to update my blog everyday(if cannot, once in a while)